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Something has been on my mind for a while so I’ll see if I can gather my thoughts into something meaningful.

My husband occasionally turns on the TV news in the morning on his days off for a few minutes. In a way it’s a great reminder of what the world “out there” is like since I manage to isolate myself from it for the most part. Those two sentences there I will have to come back to as I weave my way through this.

Another thing I notice is that when I take a look, and I do on occasion, at other alternative forums like PA (Project Avalon), TOT (The One Truth), Project Camelot, and even our little forum (Earth Empaths), I notice that we basically quit talking about the same stuff we were going on and on about just a few short years ago. I could be wrong, but I sense a feeling of being jaded has set in to a certain extent. Like, all that knowledge yet the agenda seems to march onward. What did our knowing really do for us?

And what did we discover about ourselves in this process of unveiling? That I could write a book about. It was definitely worth the trip, as far as personal growth and awareness goes. But so much of what we have discovered is disturbing indeed. Pedophilia at the highest levels goes on unabated, slavery still alive and booming, mind control programs everywhere you look, in the schools, on all forms of social media, at your local religious institution, in medicine, and definitely at the corporate level on most everything. There’s agriculture and it’s love affair with Monsanto (now Bayer), the tainted food we eat, the air we breath. The damn weather report can’t get it right anymore with geo-engineering being in the mix. Then there’s the military industrial complex and all those who profit from death. Prisons for profit, but laws that aren’t enforced on select members of society. And so many other areas of deep subversion that it would take too long to list. There is no end to the lies we’ve been told and even that grows old after a while. So what do we do with all that information?

True spirituality is a personal thing that, in my mind, should be tailor made to fit each individual’s unique needs and relationship with The Great Spirit. There may be many names, but it still comes back to if it isn’t personal and real at the individual level, then it isn’t real at all. You can’t develop that relationship by having someone else tell you what is true and what to think and do. How will you ever know if you don’t find out for your self through personal experience that it is real for you? I’m so sick of people making money off of leading people around with their version of the truth. And people just have to follow someone. Not sure why this is, except that the programming must be pretty dang effective.

Which brings me to another observation. Even in the alternative community they mostly don’t have a clue in how to work together and get along. Small groups do, but they can become more like clicks where newcomers aren’t really welcome. And I’ve seen some who talk about sovereignty while they rack up the followers and develop their own brand of dogma in the process. Maybe that’s just what is bound to happen in this brain washed mind controlled reality we now find ourselves in. Maybe most are even truly sincere in their desire to help elevate our consciousness so as to derail this train wreck many can clearly see coming. Still, they do end up becoming for some a cult of personality. I’ve even done this during my first few years of forum life, thinking I needed to hang on to someone’s words as if that elusive truth I was looking for wasn’t so much closer to home. I do have forum life to thank for that, to finally break the chain.

True freedom cannot be gained until there is some personal mastery, at least in my opinion. All too often I have seen budding partnerships and projects go by the way side because we have learned, some of us, to go it alone for so long while waiting for others to find us and catch up, that we still don’t have a clue in how to really work together for the good of the larger community. It makes me sad. For we need one another more than ever now. I look to Standing Rock as a shining example on how to come together in the right way, setting all egos aside and working for the common good. Not placing those with followers above the rest who are merely needed as the audience for their important information. Each and every one of us is important now.

And that brings me back to my earlier mention about watching the “news”, or more like listening to some because we live in a small space and you can’t get away from the sound. I can’t even stand to look at it. Thankfully I don’t get exposed for very long periods or very often. It’s all so scripted and contrived I just can’t bear it. Blah blah blah about Trump this, so and so got fired two days before he could get his pension, Russia that. Have you ever read “Confessions of an Economic Hitman”? I haven’t read it but I did see a program with the guy who wrote it talking about what his job was. It isn’t rocket science, go in, destabilize, sell weapons to (heck, even educate), then steal their resources. Everything is strategic, and nothing is what it seems. But people just don’t/won’t look below the surface. So people, just regular everyday people, men, women, and children, die everyday because of this sickness in society. When did life become so cheap?

I cry daily about children suffering from abuse on all levels, but especially sexual abuse and exploitation. I cry daily about all the people who are running for their lives in Syria. I cry daily for the Palestinian people who are being squeezed into extinction, if Israel has their way. When does it ever end? And how about all the people I see sleeping on the streets of any big city, with no hope in their eyes, as they watch the vacant stares of those who will not look. Poverty is becoming a crime. Speaking your truth is becoming a crime. Thinking outside the box is becoming a crime. And certainly questioning authority. I don’t have any answers, but I do suspect these small seeds that are starting to sprout amongst everyday people learning to work side by side with other everyday people who can find something they do agree on, and decide that the only way to achieve our goals of creating real change that starts pulling humanity in a different direction, that is more honorable and life affirming, is to get along. Is it really that hard?

I have seen it before and I will unfortunately most likely see it again. The followers of one cult of personality, whether intended or not, tearing down another cult of personality individual with whom there is a disagreement or parting of ways, as if we even know the private workings of what has occurred that the rest of us aren’t privy to. I’ve seen it over and over, this meanness, this willingness to throw people under the bus. Most of us have not had the opportunity to be in the inner circles of many of these groups that form, so a lot gets missed. What possible good can it do to jump on that snarky bandwagon when you don’t even know the persons involved on a personal level at all? It isn’t helping anyone, except unless you’re hoping to get Kudos for taking sides. I just don’t get it.

My hope for humanity is that we learn to put our personal agendas and personality differences aside and just start doing things that matter that go beyond acquiring and dispensing more information that we do nothing with. I also realize that as the neck of the bottle narrows we sometimes come into contact with others that we actually know from other lives. We have history, and some times it’s even traumatic and has never been healed. They could be opportunities, but I’ve also noticed that most don’t see it that way, and they just part ways. I hope to see that change too. To do more than just survive, and participate in activities that will actually help towards creating the kind of world we DO want to live in, it starts with everyday people, just taking that first step. It also takes those front runners who have had to go it alone for so long, feeling like the voice in the wilderness to realize that things are changing. It isn’t an emergency anymore, to get the information out there. We’ve now moved on to the next stage, so you can relax your fist hold on the reins. To win this race we must always remember, none of us are an island. We are part of ever expanding circles of life, and we can come together to create a beautiful world, if that’s what we really want. But we have to learn how to work together. To-get-her. The big mama is watching…

There’s something alchemical happening. The spiral dance of the divine feminine is picking up speed, initiating the outflow of the highest notes we can carry. How good is your voice? How strong is your intention? What is your level of integrity? These are all important questions to ponder.

(First published at http://earthempaths.net/wp/2018/03/20/to-get-her/)

The dragon of death and dying

Has been released in the world of the living

Can you not feel it’s hot breath

Upon your backside

As you struggle to get away

Maybe it is time to turn

And face your shadow

That which dogs your every step

Taking the sword of truth

You step up and take your stand

From the center of your “I am” self

Of your ship you take command

Just as it is about

To take a perilous dip

Somehow you just know what to do

Despite the war god’s whip

Even though you don’t remember

Being here before

Just like your fingers never forget

The chords on your guitar

You know how to shine

Like the star you really are

My gut aches aches and reels

As the collective shadow grows large

I wish I didn’t already know

How the future looks and feels

As death gleefully grins

And the eagle of our fate

Gets ready to descend

The only way out of this

Is to finally make amends

Out of the abyss of hate and fear

You choose the path of love

And you reach up and turn the light on

To see what has been hiding there

All along

And now

Your shadows

Run

The way I use dowsing is very specific. It’s true that the pendulum is merely a tool that assists the subconscious mind in knowing that you are intending to make a connection, much like the phone ringing when you make a call. It also alerts your higher self and the larger team of participants that exist in the unseen realms that you are consciously asking for their expertise and assistance. When all these elements are assembled, much can be accomplished that would otherwise seem out of reach.

If you think about these other energies being called in, it’s like asking that you can hear, see, and feel, much more than your ordinary five senses in the physical can reveal. As everyone knows, we humans can only hear, see, and feel within a certain range, and what we know and identify as ourselves in this reality where we are limited by the container which our spirit is connected to during our physical lifetime is like the tip of the iceberg that hides its larger self out of sight. So, what we see and think of as ourselves as an individual entity, without proper understanding, can be an illusion that limits our perceptive field in the realm of true possibilities.

One question that should quickly arise is how do I know if I am really connected to my higher self etc, and not some other clever, manipulative, and deceitful entity simply wanting to gain access for reasons that are not intended for mine or others higher good? For me, the biggest way I feel confident that I am connected to the realm where I have gained access to my larger self and its team of assistants is by the quality of the interaction. After years of fine tuning I can finally recognize the difference. I receive many confirmations. We all have this ability, but for many it has such a layer of programming and barnacles of beliefs that have never been questioned that a thorough cleaning is in order to clear the field.

There are many ways to do this, and the method I use is only one of innumerable choices. There, in my understanding, is not just one right way. But it is the way I have gained experience and confidence in the unseen realm being available to render assistance when called upon. That is another huge difference. Our larger self that extends beyond our physical body engages in many tasks in the unseen realms, and requires us make the call so to speak. It doesn’t do any good to talk into the phone if no one is on the other end. When we ask, it is like making the call, and saying, yes, I want to interact with you.

This is important, for there are also many ways in which our unconscious self has made agreements with other parts of the unseen realms, for purposes at odds with our making this reconnection to our whole self. From my understanding, every trauma that is not re-mem-bered, healed, and cleared, leaves a residue of the larger self in a part of this unseen realm. The parts that have not been recovered from this unseen realm have been co-opted by a whole realm of beings who found a way to profit from these lost children, much like the lost children in Peter Pan. And they use our fears, also mostly unconscious, to keep us stuck, to keep us from actualizing our larger potential as creator beings in our own right. This way they can keep using those unreclaimed parts of ourselves to further their own agenda, and to live through us vicariously as attachments to our shadows, much like barnacles that slow down the ships progress as it navigates through the sometimes turbulent waters of life.

But the shadows disappear, as though they never existed, when the light shines directly overhead. Daily practice of shining this light is a great way to clean your ship of these barnacles. Then you experience more smooth sailing, and even better control during the storms. Having a good captain at the helm is definitely what you want to have during these like wise turbulent and fast changing times in which we live. And you are the captain of your own ship.

When I meditate sometimes I get a few visuals and even on occasion some dialogue to go with them. Lately I’ve been seeing images of a ginormous tree, with branches that extend beyond our atmosphere, and roots that go deep into the center of the earth.

At least on an energetic level I get that this tree is as real as real can be. I feel into the flows of energy, with some going deep down into these roots, pulling out the earths nutrients, to nourish the upper branches and leaves. Each and every root has a corresponding branch in the upper world which it is energetically connected to. As the branches with leaves absorb the life giving properties of the sun and utilize the nutrients that the roots provides there is continuous expanding growth.

Eventually, as the cycle of life goes, the tree has reached its fullest potential that it was created with, and feels the impetus to begin anew. The fruits it has gathered throughout its experience of expansion have fully ripened, and are now ready to fall from the tree to await the right conditions to sprout and begin the cycle all over again, yet holding the cellular memory of its previous incarnation from before.

Not every seed will grow to its full potential, for some do not find hospitable ground to nourish their developing roots, nor sometimes enough access to the life giving properties of the sun to nourish their developing leaves and branches. But nothing is ever lost. It simply changes form.

Water. Without water the tree will also die. Water is life, is flow, is present. It is dynamic, it is pregnant with the potential of changing from one form to another with ease. It’s the glue that holds it all together, while at the same time it is the lubricant which allows for energy to move. It is present to some degree in all things. When form no longer has access to the life giving properties of water, it simply ceases to exist. But water is eternal, and ever present, whether it can be seen or not.

The world tree appears to be dying, but that too is not the only interpretation of what one can see playing out on the world stage. During its long sojourn it has created many seeds. Those seeds are the fruits of the morrow and are almost fully ripened. But one must be patient, lest one pick the fruit too early and it has not had time to develop its natural sweetness to the fullest. And there are always greedy predators who have no regard for the life cycle of the living tree of life. They do not realize that by picking the fruit prematurely they are sealing their own demise. There are always wise ones too, who will guard the trees fruit with vigilance and readiness at all times. For any good farmer knows that growth is dependent on numerous factors, and not every field will be ready for harvest at the same time. And any good farmer knows that to start the cycle anew there must be good seed.

One can tune in and almost feel the movement of energy throughout the trees trunk, roots, and branches. Energy moves up the tree to the highest branches and leaves, while at the same time it is moving down the tree into the deepest roots. The energy moves in a spiral and funneling dance that is never static. At its center is the heart of the tree that holds it all together. It is where the well of the waters of life resides. From this deep well all past present and futures are known. And each drop as it ushers forth from the heart, carries with it the full potential of all possibilities of life as it expresses itself in form. The heart takes it all in, transmutes the energies and materials it receives, and sends it all back out in a usable form for the nourishment of the tree.

But there are loggers who would cut down the tree, without any awareness of its life giving properties to the entire cycle of life in form on this planet called earth. For the earth herself is the heart of the world tree. For this tree to once again flourish there must be more wise ones who will guard the trees fruits with vigilance and readiness at all times. We need more good farmers who will protect the growing fruits from the weeds that threaten to overtake. Weeds, of themselves, are neither good nor bad. They simply do what they do. They grow. And I have noticed that when one fertilizes and waters the tree, the weeds grow better too! I do not wish to eliminate the weeds, simply to remove those who would threaten the growth of the tree. There is plenty of room for weeds, but not in the cultivated garden. Since they are so hardy they do not need the tender nourishment and care needed by the world tree of life. For the tree of life must have love to thrive. It’s heart must be kept safe, so that its children the seeds can mature in their own time and way.

It needs the space of love, and that is the difference. It’s seeds need to be planted with care, and watered, receive sunlight, and have nourishing soil upon which to grow. It needs a gardener who will stay the course. One can not hurry the process with weed killers, or try to make seeds that can resist all challenge, just as the chicken will not hatch properly if it’s shell is broken prematurely. No, seeds need infinite patience and trust in the cycle of life, and the waters of creation. Are we not all dreamers at the well of the waters of life? I know I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again. Dream big. Dream beautiful.

Here is a song I learned when I attended the 1999 Svaha Spirit Lodge three day Long Dance event on Orcas Island, in Washington State:

Tree of life in the center
Tree of life all around
Tree of life growing taller
Rooted in the ground

Tree of life after lifetime
Tree of life never dies
Tree of earth mother spirit
Tree of father sky

Dreamers at the well of the Waters of Life, drinking deeply, drinking full.
One morning while meditating I had the experience of the earth as one big gigantic garden, with many smaller gardens like drops that make up the ocean as part of a larger whole.
Like the sparks of divine love that each of us ultimately are, I wish to share of that open heart space that has allowed me to experience great love for all life and honor each and every being that is sharing this experience with me at this time. There is nothing to fear.

One hundred percent faith have I that as each of us awakens from the dream of separation our reunion with one another and with the beautiful hidden star of our origins connected to the very heart of the mother as she is experienced in all of us will allow the truth to finally be known.
We are like stars!